Why?

The unanswerable question that I must try to answer.

I cannot imagine what you must really be thinking of me lately. I have ran through the craziest times in my life in just a few short months and something “snapped” inside me. I decided I am not crazy, I am not defective, I am not really that different from anyone else.

What has made me different than a lot of people is that I got scared. I don’t mean just an “oh, is that a spider?” type of scared, but more of an “oh, that is a spider, with a pet snake and they are leading that serial murderer right to me” type of scared. During this period of intense fear, as I was looking for answers, I was continually giving personal details about my feelings and experiences to anyone who could see my personal Facebook profile and anyone who was connected on our Poor family group (*Disclaimer: we do not just let anyone in that group…you have to be a crazy PicherPoor.) all while seeking answers to what suddenly made me feel like ending my own life.

That breakdown has lead me to some amazing lessons and some amazing opportunities. I have met some incredible people along the way, been reintroduced to others, and finalized some leadership training that was offered to me by a unique woman.

Now here we are! At least I am here. I can not tell you where we are going, or how we will get there, but I can tell you that there is a force so much greater than me or you that is charge. I call this force God! I hope you will stick around and see where I am led.

Lisa R McAlhany

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